Masters and life innit

Hi squirrels!

Here's a fun bit of trivia - some Americans pronounce squirrels "squirrls". That really shit fucks me up (in a good way). Is that what a word is meant to sound like? They also call sidewalks pavements and spell colour without the U (although apparently this was because of a marketing thing - back in the good ol' days when companies used to post ads in the newspapers they used to get charged by the letter, so marketing execs. got the U in colour to fuck off to save $$$. Or maybe just $, it was only 1 letter after all.) ((This fun fact is sponsored by my year 9 history teacher, Mr. Stock))

Anyways, recently I've been exposed to a lot more Americans. Actually, recently I've been exposed to a lot more people in general...that's right ladies, gents, non-binary ppl, & government agent monitoring me: I've started my masters! WOOOOOO.

There are many things to consider when on the topic of my masters, so for your (a.k.a future Alysha reading this because - let's face it - no one reads this blog) convenience, I've decided to make an F.A.Q!

Frequently Asked Questions

1. What is your MA in?

Producing for film and tv

2. How's it going so far?

Everyone is very smart and has incredible film && industry knowledge. Meanwhile my claim to fame was starring in my y12 Macbeth production where my only line was "Macbeth." So it's going FAB.

3. How are the people?

They are amazing and very smart and most of them older than me. Very international - most of them are American. Some of them are European. 3 of us are Asian. It's almost like a smaller scale representation of Hollywood. 

4. Do you want to be a producer?

I want to make money doing something that isn't an amazon commercial, yes.

5. So you've given up on acting?

No, I've actually just signed to a new agent! And my course is only 2 days a week so that leaves the other five days for me to do actor-y things like stroking my own ego, constantly seeking validation from my friends and foes, crying at the insecurity that permeates my very being, and furiously masturbating to the thought of myself winning an Oscar. Oh and I got new headshots. 

6....how's your mental health?

Not to be dramatic but sometimes in class I have moments of complete derealisation/ depersonalisation and I feel like nothing is real and this reality is all a dream and I'm not real either and this whole life is just happening in my head. Most times I think about my lunch and how good it's gonna taste.  

7. Are you enjoying your course?

It's very challenging and makes me feel incredibly driven. I've not yet gotten the hang of it but I've already learnt a lot!

8. Are you enjoying your life?

Honestly, this is the most I've been enjoying it in a year. 

9. Are you happy?

Yes. 

10. Isn't it kinda self obsessed / narcissistic to give yourself a fake interview/FAQ thing?

Yeah lol it's okay though I feel like future me is gonna have a LAFF reading this.

Okay jokes aside, I'm quite content with life at the moment. I've been going to industry workshops in Egham and I've learnt so much about sets!! And setting up sets!!! And when you turn on a light it's called STRIKING!!!! Also the fuzzy thing on a mic is called a dead cat. I'm not too happy about that one. I think FUZZY would have been a better name. Or FUZZBALL. Probably not fuzzball on second thoughts.

Mood check: I feel very happy when I'm working or learning. For the first time in awhile, I don't feel stagnant. I feel driven and motivated. Amazing the difference a year can make, eh? I think back to my headspace last year and I'm so much better now.

*** This post was written on Nov 15th 2019. 

:)